Apparently...it's a little bit of both with a lot to do with the raging hormones. Things people say or do have much more of an impact than before. It's quite hard to explain but 'sucky' to experience.
Something funny I heard...well not funny but ridiculous is that some people actually think life gives away freebies. What I mean is that they really believe the impact of their words will NOT generate a reaction or response. Crazy right? And I thought I was going cray. Reality is...if you have the audacity to make a comment, you best expect a response.
I struggle with dealing with the impact of my words everyday. (And no, I'm not talking about my "ND blog" from 2 days ago- those words were genuine and completely from the heart). But sometimes I know I can strike a pretty deep jab where it hurts to certain people (you know...take it REAL personal)...and sometimes I am tempted to do it because they've hurt me or angered me in some way....and sometimes I surrender. The guilt always sets in and I do end up apologizing but sometimes the damage has already been done.
Well...I am definitely working on it and with this pregnancy, that skill is definitely A LOT harder to hold onto.
What keeps me going?
This little girl kicking me in the bladder, ribs, and everything else in there. She really does know when to kick to remind me of the greater purpose of it all. In just months, I will be holding this beautiful baby girl and no one or nothing else will really matter.
19 Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry.20 Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires. 21 So get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls.
22 But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves. 23 For if you listen to the word and don’t obey, it is like glancing at your face in a mirror. 24 You see yourself, walk away, and forget what you look like. 25 But if you look carefully into the perfect law that sets you free, and if you do what it says and don’t forget what you heard, then God will bless you for doing it.
26 If you claim to be religious but don’t control your tongue, you are fooling yourself, and your religion is worthless.27 Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.
James 1: 19-27
Please pray for me.
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