16 weeks! Whoa momma!

The bump is real. I can't suck it in any longer! 

How far along? 16 weeks 

Total weight gain? 4.5 total (lost 2 then gained it back! yay!)

Maternity clothes? No! But mainly because I am in denial. I just wear "bigger" clothes. More versatile. 

Sleep? I sleep but back pain and round ligament pain are EH! 

Best moment this week? My amazing pre-natal appointment! Hearing the hummingbird heartbeat was amazing & reminded me of how well baby dough is doing. Another awesome moment is getting a hot stone massage pedicure AND once the lady found out I was preggo (because I was reading my preg book), she turned a 45 min session into a 2 hour one and extended my massage!! ;) The perks of pregnancy are beginning...ooooo!! :D

Miss Anything? headache free & acne free life!

Movement? Felt a couple "flutters" but not sure if that's the baby yet.

Food cravings? Raw veggies, chocolate ice cream, & Laos food

Anything make you queasy or sick? Motion sickness has gotten way worse & avocados still gross me out. 

Gender? Only God knows :)

Symptoms? Hormonal headaches, Round ligament spasms, and emotional instability! Eek. Oh and the on & off acne! When do I get the GLOW everyone talks about?!

Belly button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? on

Happy or Moody? I'm a rollercoaster baby! 

Looking forward to? BABYMOON to California & my first baby shower in California!! 

:)

mama got a hot stone massage pedicure. baby daddy cleaned the house. yay.

hummingbird heartbeat

Hearing your heartbeat makes me feel so much better.

All the worrying, weight loss/gain, headaches, and backaches don't cloud my head while hearing how strong and beautiful your heartbeat is. 

We are coming up on 16 weeks and I am excited because I will start to feel you which will be my reassurance every time there's a kick or nudge. 

We get to go on your first vacation...well while you're happily growing in me. 

I promise to continue to nourish you...stay relaxed so you will stay relaxed...and soak up all the love that California has to offer so you can get a glimpse of the world you're coming into. 

A lot of people already love you so much. 

Especially your dad and I <3

a baby name suggestion.

Meet Demeion.

He is my future cousin and has volunteered as my "baby planner". He is also a ((secret)) not-so-secret reader of my blogs **gasp** (haha).

Well we have this thing with pictures. At every super fab event (like where I'm Garth), we take pictures where I basically am picking him up from the ground hehe...well just giving him a big big hug cause he's so huggable!

There is much more to the story of our friendship/family-ship but that's for a later date ;)

Well while I am trying to fit this blog in super super late...I wanted to share the name he suggested...well more like gave us to give to our future baby-boy or girl.

Yes people. He is thoughtful enough to give us a UNISEX name! yes this guy has put thought into it!

So what's the name? 

Goodnight!

today was a tiring day. lets not mention the abundance of round ligament pain just beginning. another beautiful pregnancy pain. goodnight folks.

my break.

Last week, I was an emotional wreck. I really prided myself in being calm, cool, and collective (more so than during my PMS times) during this pregnancy...and even Ryan has acknowledged that. Even during the CRAZY nauseous times, I still had to go to clinic, treat patients etc without complaining or compromising my schedule...because I didn't have any other option. I still had to take board exams, sneak food in the bathroom during it, and ended up passing! So I feel like the majority of this thus far, I've been able to have a hold on my emotions. Until...last week. 

Life is stressful right? I mean duh. I guess that adds to the beauty of it all. But man oh man, did I underestimate these hormones or what?! I encountered some...difficult conversations with people and found myself tearing up and being able to hold back OR completely breaking down to the point of hyperventilation-crying..you know..that UGLY cry (haha). Ryan was always there of course to help soothe it all but I think I've apologized to him more this week than ever. Honestly though, through the crying rants, I think my week was successful if I didn't BITE anyone's head off which...believe me, was a hard filter to maintain considering my crazy emotional state! 

It wasn't just the uncontrollable crying during the stressful times. Oh it happened during the beautiful happy times too. Like when I passed boards. Then when Ryan took me out to dinner to celebrate, I just looked at him & he told me how beautiful I was, then I cried. Cried cried cried...oh gosh. I could fill the ocean with how much I LOST it this week. Then I had this dream...that makes me tear up just thinking about it. 

short one

Today is a short one guys. I will be sharing my emotional week I had with you tomorrow...from my breakdowns...my celebrations..to my dreams (literally). 

It's been grand.